Shitty Day ]:

yea..i so felt that this morning. i couldnt wake up cuz i was too sleepy so was late to class.
OUTLINE OF MY DAY : [ Tuesday Schedual]
1 period English : late to class, then slept
2 period Geography: shitty class but actually paid attention
3 period Math: fight broke out between teacher & student. Lol it was like a staring contest. ahaha. so this period went by hella fast
4 period Chinese: finnished the hw i didnt do last nite
5 period Chinese: went to library to do reading
Lunch: went to this shopping place near school & lost track of time...again ~!
6 period Physics: was 20 minutes late to class, & the 3 of us were pussies, we were too scared to go in cuz our physics teacher is like beyoooonnnnnd scary! so chilled at the stairways.[ i know...i ditched again -_- && A MAIN COURSE THIS TIME!! GRR] we were lucky the teacher didnt find out
7 period P.E: was planning to ditch this but decided to be a good girl for the day & did what i was suppose to do this class..which was runn ! omg..hella tired & sore
8 period Art: hella ppl ditched this to work on their clothing for the school arts festival.[ it's in 2 days ] Lol all crowded up in the 5th floor bathroom.i went with them but then decided to go to class 10 minutes later cuz...I ACTUALLY LIKE THIS CLASS (: finnished some classwork & had time to do another painting. hehe loved it
0 period: Rope Pulling Competitions [: only six classes left & there's gonna be 3 number ones. lol so our class won. yay, but i swear..these people are just soo ugh..COCKY BEYOND WORDS! in chinese.
After School: Some dramatic shit happened...arguements over some online comments this gurl from another class wrote about our class. I SWEARR! THIS PEOPLE ARE SOOO STUPID! so like in the end, they pissed of that class's teacher, class prez almost got expelled, & two people got so mad that they cried.
Walked home alone today..got some time to clear my mind on shit. Walking in the dark winter streets with my ipod, so dark that ppl can't see my face, mhm..i like that feeling.

Smile at the City Lights

Idk why, now that i look at it over all. my day wasn't so bad ..but i just feel really shitty. and inside my mind...i know the real reason why i feel like this...i hate that this is my reason...it's not good..im getting too dependent..too weak.
So i havnt's spent time with my bf all day..WTF, i know, such a stupid reason, u guys are probably thinking so what?
BUT IT MATTERS TO ME & IM GOING CRAZY. WHAT HAVE I BECOME??! i use to be so indepent..now? grr..im sooo addicted to him it's crazy. i want him by my side 24/7 becuz when im with him..this happy feeling of comfort & security just rushes to me. I want him by my side right now sooo bad.

omg...im just gonna admit it now. im falling so much harder for him than i intended to in the first place. ima be honest now..i thought this was gonna be just a fling when we first started going out & now. IM SOOO FCKING IN LOVE WITH THIS BOY!
they say that the more you like somebody's personality, they get better looking to you. Lol i think he's oh so flaming hot now. is it him or is it me? hehe i just melt everytime i see him.
Oh & he's so sweet, he wears that necklace i gave him everyday now(: hehe & i DO check! oh yessir, going kinda overboard XP
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Yea I'm Gonna play with my Heart now .


Okay no...IM GONNA FORCE MYSELF TO STOP THINKING BOUT HIM & DO MY HW NOW. i wanna be able to prove that i can be in a relationship & get good grades at the same time.

p.s You know thaat big physics test i bombed last Friday? well got it back today. got a 55%. omg that's actually pretty alrite! highest score in the whole grade was a 84% so it just goes to prove how hard that test was. bf got a 80% rawr, soo smart. anyways! gonna work harder! so regret that i cut physics today..I CAN'T AFFORD TO CUT ANY OF THE MAIN COURSES! im gonna be harder on myself next time & force myself to not ditch. yes yes "Jia You, Jia You!" aha