Confessions Set #1

1. My old addiction is back..ditching class.. omg i know its not good , & i promised myself i'd be a good girl after "that night" but..grr. i didnt ditch the whole days, just perticular classes but its been going on everday for a week now T_T helppp, & i think im about to ditch again tommorrow wif bf. i can't stop, & i have feeling sooner or later ima get caught ;p
But it's amazing..how i feel wen im with him;
cute moment yesterday, we were at the stairway near the music classroom & this beautiful classical music was playing , & we just started to slow dance to it, omg it was the best feeling everrrr. grr..i wanna stay in his arm forever <3
p.s bf is not bad influence on me, only 2 of the times was with him & that was cuz i dragged him into it. yea.. i know, needa stop, but here's the problem, he's addicted to it now too! & it's just, hehe that risky feeling wen we r alone in the stairways & you know...LOL I'll be plain honest w/ u. it's hot.
& today wen i ditch, was wif two other girls & we r so retarded, lol we were in the bathroom the whole time playing w/ makeup, & everytime someone was coming we all had to squish & Hide in one stall while trying not to laugh. LOL, it was hilarious, i felt like those bathroom druggies. aha

2.I still can't can't say an honest "i love you" to him.
even tho im hella fell for him. still can't say it's love. i keep thinking we r too young & Stuff. plus i really take these words seriously. today when he said: " you don't gotta believe anything else, but u need to believe that i love you" *PAUSE, yea i think he was waiting for a return but i just laughed it off -_- im so lame..

3.Im getting hella lazy again..
ever since my dad's been on his bussiness trip, i have completely let loose on myself ;p

4. Im still NOT happy..why?
[*only exception is when im with my bf, other than that, i feel soo dead, i dont fit in, i dont belong, i want OUT!]

5.I wanna get to know you
Is there such thing as wanting to hella get to know this guy, but only wanting to be good friends with him yet knowing he likes you?
cuz i hella want to get to know this guy more..we used to talk..but now..idk it faded. but i know he notices me alot. & there's just something about it, his vibe? that make me think i would hella get along with him & he would get me. but he's my bf's friend...& no guy dares to even talk to me wen my bf is near -_- lame rite?

6.Im a fake bitch. i act so nice to all of u with my fake smiles but you guys simply have no idea wat im thinking about you inside my head.