Hair Cut

hehe cut it myself like always, now it's really thin. hehe i dont like other ppl messing w/ my hair ;p

I Hate it when....

1. People break promises
2. Someone calls me their best friend when i dont even consider myself at all close w/ them
3. Girls stare at u like ur some weird shit. [even tho i do it sometimes when i see pretty girls ^^]
4. People cuss in every sentence
5. People never say thank you
6. People gossip NONESTOP
7. People have nothing to talk about except gossip
8. Im standing next to a petite girl and i look like this freaking giant! thats why i hate having super short friends, except this one dumbutt ! ^^
9. People are all up on my face squinting and asking me "did u put on makeup" OMG, like STFU.
10. Someone reply to my texts slow
11. I realize i just missed a chance to get to know someone
12. People expect me to know who they are on the phone cuz most of the time, IM WRONG! and they get offended.... ;p
13. There's a weird pause on the phone
14. Guys get to know me only for one reason
15. Guys are too shy to talk to me themselves! immediate turnoff -.-
16. People tYpE LyKe THiiSs.
17. People get all worked up just cuz my bra strap is showing! calm ur shit down, it's only a bra strap !! [maybe this is like a cultural thing or something but im sick of it!]
18. Guys think they OWN me. gtfo
19. People dress crappy, im sry, i know this sounds bitchy and superficial but i cant help but notice these things, i just wanna go and fix them up
20. Girls dont shave when they're helluh hairy!!
21. People talk to me one second and act like they dont know me the next
22. GIRLS GET AT GUYS WHEN THEY KNOW THE GUY HAS A GF. thats just low
23. People who dont check themselves before they think they're all that OR THEY'RE GOOD ENOUGH TO GET W/ SOMEONE ELSE'S MAN
24. People cant get serious when i need them too
25. People secretly take pics of me w/o me knowing and i end up all moded -.- [all the timmeeeee]

Dear ________,

I know ur upset over what happened with ur cousin but maybe ur gonna just have to accept the fact that people change and even the best of friends are gonna dissapoint u at one point or another. I mean forreals, can u count the numbers of time u dissapointed me? and that day i left, i mean what u DIDNT DO was really hurtful and disrespectful. If i was like u, i would have stopped talking to u right then, cuz ur damn right i was pissed, i just didnt show it.

But hey, what im trying to say is that u cant always be stuck on the past, i mean seriously, sometimes its better to be forgiving, cuz honestly, it's also make u feel better inside too. So yeah, just move on w/ ur life and stop being childish about it. Cuz family is family no matter what. They can be annoying but there's nothing u can do about it.

What do you do when the feeling's just gone?

So today, my friend was telling me about how she recently broke up with her bf of two years and got together with a new guy. She talked about how great the new guy was and how happy she is now. Honestly, i thought she was kinda cruel to do that to her ex cuz i knew him and i thought he treated her really nice to her. Talking about her really lovingly, always surprising her with presents,introducing her to his parents..Sure they had lotta problems in between but i still thought they were cute.
she said that the feeling was gone with him, and every time he called her wifey or baby she's actually get disgusted.
>>>now the guy got together w/ someone else too, Helluh quick ! But you can tell he's hurt.

Yeah..i thought she was cruel...until i experienced the same thing. i guess i've never been able to put a word on the feeling im having but now that i think about it, maybe i just don't love him anymore...lately, he's really been pissing me off,even tho some of it is probably not his fault. his dad is really against him dating..yeah, even more so after the last time we got caught..... But still, i feel like he just cant make me happy no more.
1.He's afraid to be seen outside w/ me
2.I dont get to spend much time w/ him no more
3.We dont have late-night phone calls like a couple should, in fact, it dont even have to be late night phone calls, just those deep talks, no i cant talk about that shit with him. NO MORE
4.He's helluh not romantic.
5.& lots more little things that bugs me

I know he really cares about me, and wanna make me happy but im just sick of telling him exactly what to do so he would get it. We are not a couple no more, so why r we still all kissing and sht. So we do all the physical things[dont't think wrong] a couple do but not the emotional bonding things? That's just simply not gonna work for me.

People say that when ur in love, you just cant seem to see the other persons flaws, both inside and out. Now,im just pissed about every little thing he does, and honestly, i dont even feel like he's as atractive as i thought he was no more.

I pulled out an old diary entry of the first few days of our relationship. Damn, i was so giddy, saying how i thought he was the perfect guy and that im so lucky to have met him cuz he brings out the best in me. Now? i cant even find much good things to write about him no more.

Let's say really really really broke up, no friends with benefits thing, if i see him w/ someone else, i would still be helluh hurt. now in my head, im just asking myself over and over again, "what should i do?" i dont wanna hurt him or myself. This feeling of not loving him no more but not being able to give him up? its confusing as hell, and it really isnt fair to him.

This is just a rant, i know it's long, w/e. im in an emotional mess rite now.

Things i bought

So i bought the skirt in the airport for 200 yen, and the shoes in XingJiang. idk which shoe goes better with the outfit,dirty mirror ;p


shoe 1

shoe 2


cus it was cute

i also bought this big wallet and some little things. didnt really shop much cuz where my grandma lives isnt really a place for shopping, but the food was fantastic! ^-^ everyone gained weight there cept me, muahahaha!

Trip to XingJiang

Here's some pics from my trip, i didnt include any pics of my family members cuz they mite not like it LOL ^^


Miles and miles of sun flowers


took some home but they died T.T


It's called the bottomless lake




the car we took to go on the huge road trip. how huge was the road trip? we went to the borders of two countries

Border of Russia

Ancient statue of a women as u can tell my the boobies LOL

Looks like a painting and im photoshoped in


Border of something something -istan


Isn't this amazing, its some kind of red flower that could be used in cooking and ppl just spread em on the ground to dry it


A dam like place. it's beautiful


hehe cattles!




just so u get an idea of how blue the water is


view from the plane



Byeee beautiful XingJiang. i cried when i left my family. in fact everyone cried ];

OH & btw, if ur wondering why im wearing dark long clothes, its cuz out in the wild there, theres lots of bugs and some plants u wouldnt wanna touch. im not even kidding about the bugs, they be jumping around everywhereeeeee !

My Lovely Phone

Worst Day Everrr =.=

So today we went to this huge famous amusement park in china called Happy Valley. Woke up late and literally took less than 2 min to get ready. Rode the subway backwards (my fault =.=) Then went in and played this water ride. Things were alrite. THENNNNNN, omg i swear i will NEVER play those spinning teacup things no moreee! i know they're for kids but *cough cough, SOMEONEEEEEE spined the wheel helluh fast and wouldn't stop. i swear we were like the fastest spinning teacup!!!(<--LOL) That feeling, feels like ur lying down yet spinning outta control at the same time. Everyone in line was looking at us, and i covered my eyes cuz i felt soooo sick, i ever heard someone say:" Look that girl is crying." So yeah, after that,i was sooo sick i had to sit down for helluh longgg! its the WORST feeling ever. After that, we didnt go on anymore rides. 160 Yuan per person for this is BS! i was soo pissed but i just couldnt get that feeling to go away. *sign, tommorrow im flying off to XingJiang, Byee byeeee lovess <3 ;D