Tuesday, August 24, 2010

What do you do when the feeling's just gone?

So today, my friend was telling me about how she recently broke up with her bf of two years and got together with a new guy. She talked about how great the new guy was and how happy she is now. Honestly, i thought she was kinda cruel to do that to her ex cuz i knew him and i thought he treated her really nice to her. Talking about her really lovingly, always surprising her with presents,introducing her to his parents..Sure they had lotta problems in between but i still thought they were cute.
she said that the feeling was gone with him, and every time he called her wifey or baby she's actually get disgusted.
>>>now the guy got together w/ someone else too, Helluh quick ! But you can tell he's hurt.

Yeah..i thought she was cruel...until i experienced the same thing. i guess i've never been able to put a word on the feeling im having but now that i think about it, maybe i just don't love him anymore...lately, he's really been pissing me off,even tho some of it is probably not his fault. his dad is really against him dating..yeah, even more so after the last time we got caught..... But still, i feel like he just cant make me happy no more.
1.He's afraid to be seen outside w/ me
2.I dont get to spend much time w/ him no more
3.We dont have late-night phone calls like a couple should, in fact, it dont even have to be late night phone calls, just those deep talks, no i cant talk about that shit with him. NO MORE
4.He's helluh not romantic.
5.& lots more little things that bugs me

I know he really cares about me, and wanna make me happy but im just sick of telling him exactly what to do so he would get it. We are not a couple no more, so why r we still all kissing and sht. So we do all the physical things[dont't think wrong] a couple do but not the emotional bonding things? That's just simply not gonna work for me.

People say that when ur in love, you just cant seem to see the other persons flaws, both inside and out. Now,im just pissed about every little thing he does, and honestly, i dont even feel like he's as atractive as i thought he was no more.

I pulled out an old diary entry of the first few days of our relationship. Damn, i was so giddy, saying how i thought he was the perfect guy and that im so lucky to have met him cuz he brings out the best in me. Now? i cant even find much good things to write about him no more.

Let's say really really really broke up, no friends with benefits thing, if i see him w/ someone else, i would still be helluh hurt. now in my head, im just asking myself over and over again, "what should i do?" i dont wanna hurt him or myself. This feeling of not loving him no more but not being able to give him up? its confusing as hell, and it really isnt fair to him.

This is just a rant, i know it's long, w/e. im in an emotional mess rite now.

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