On Vacation [:

so its officially day 1 of being in XiAn. mhm..i think i have a problem, idk i dont really connect wif my relatives, cept my grandma. hehe ilh. but the other ones..no..in fact its akward being alone wif em ;p
But w/e, glad im on vacation, i forreals need a getway or ima go crazy. well im not gonna be a drama queen & say my life is sooo bad or w/e. but it's not well either. me & bf havn't said a word to each other in 4 days...& idk..i hate that it still bothers me. grr..BUT I AM NOT GONNA TAKE THE FIRST INITIATIVE.
Like forreals, ima give him 2 weeks, if he not gonna do anything bout wat happened then it's fucking over for us. idc how much i still care bout him, i'll survive.
Plus forreals, not like nobody else would want me.
aha no, rite now, im just gonna focus on my studies, bf or not. Thats wats important rite now, & im not gonna let some guy fck me over, not even him.
But im not gonna lie about how it dont hurt...cuz it does, sometimes unbearable.
but im doing wats best for me. if he dont come to me then i know we werent meant to be. theres that quote bout "if u let someone go & they come back to you....ect"
LOl yea. so im gonna go with my head this time cuzzz....i CANNOT depend on my heart.
It doesnt do wats in my best interest.