Speechless

To be honest witchu i really dont know wat to say to u anymore. i dont know how our normal convo turned into that topic but yea, its been on my mind for a while now & i couldnt help but blurt it out.
You tell me to give u time but i think i've given u enough time. more than half a year should be enough & i still dont see no change u you. You say u care but wtf, actions speak louder than words. u were never there wen i was going thru tough shit being here alone by myself.
You say ur sorry, & i can feel that u are too, & i do forgive u cuz im not one to hold grudges but i would never forget. i would never forget all the times u dissapoint me.
expectations lead to dissapointment but how can i not expect stuff from u. ur suppose to be my best friend. i barely even remember any times that u did act like a best friend to me. Even before u changed. everything is said w/ ur mouth, u never showed it w/ actions.
& dont think i forgot about that morning before i left too. u were suppose to come but ugh...u & ur stupid issues. im not gonna even talk about it no more cuz the more i do the more i get mad & i dont wanna spoil my good mood right now.
plus u know wat? maybe sometimes its not always about YOU. about how YOU need to work out YOUR problems. how do u think i feel. forreals
and u've been saying how she dissapointed u & how u thought she changed cuz u guys use to be such good friends since young. wtf? so u do know how it feels to be dissapointed by someone close to u right? so why the hell u doing this to me. honestly, nobody deserves this type of friendship. the friendship where one person has to make all the effort to hold it togeher.
Dont trip tho i aint mad at chu. i think it would just be better if u'd stop calling me ur best friend no more. cuz, u dont even do ur part. & im kinda getting tired of me always having to take the first step to fix things.
u know things arnt the same as before, dont deny it. but i guess change is unavoidable in life right? but i think for our own good, we should just be ordinary friends from now on. That way, it'd save me from getting so pissed, then sad, then dissapointed by u.

Lol, this sounds like a freaking lezbo break up letter huh. aha well w/e, i hope u'd be able to see the brighter life of side soon, & wen u finally decide to change back, give me a call, then maybe we can be best friends again.
For now...idk, i cant really help u cuz i dont even get wtf is wrong with u. honestly, i just think its all in ur head & ur making ur life more miserable than it actually is. So ur cousin changed right? maybe u did too. maybe even worse off than her. yeah, maybe it aint all her fault, think about that.
Basically im just kinda tired to be dissapointed all the time now. sure my bf dissapoints me too & i forgive him cuz i want him in my life...but seriously, he's just a "guy".Guys are too stupid to get it.but ur suppose to be my best friend. ur suppose to be someone that i can fall back on, someone thats suppose to be there for me, & i guess u've just decided the little problems u be creating in ur head are just more important than this friendship.
ima end this now cuz i've got shit to do.. i hope u think about all that i've said.