Never

It hurts. why do i keep reading those words over and over again. why?

"i will make u love me "
FUCK THAT STUPID BITCH WHO SAID THATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!
i needa chill, i needa stop reading, i needa stop being so obesessive.
i just needa stop. But really, i think im just in too deep. i never meant to love u this much. i never thought i'd get so hurt over a stupid guy. i never thought i'd turn into those stupid girls. never, but now, i realized one thing, and that is in life, anything can happen.
i never thought i'd be here, but i am
i never thought i'd lose u, and now im slowing losing u
i never thought i'd care about education so much, but now im enlightened
i never thought i'd be this empty, but now look
i never thought i'd be such a bitch, but no i am
i never thought i'd care so much, but now i do
>>expect the unexpected.

During these few days, i felt really enlightened by those ancient chinse literature they make u learn in school. I use to think it was useless, waste of time how teachers make u memorize them, but as time passed, i began to understand them, understand the meaning behind it. And i have to say, they make so much sense now. When i find myself in a bad mood, for some reason i'd always think back to those quotes..aha. i've changed (: for better or for worse, i guess that's not for me to decide.